I seriously need a break from this house. I can not take any more of the rudeness, disrespect, hate, and hurtfulness any longer. It's depressing me more and more every day. I'm not even able to focus in school any more. My thoughts are always wondering to problems at home.
I just wish I could go back in time to when I was a little girl. Back then I was so happy. I has the 'perfect' family; in my eyes, at least. Now, we're just as dysfunctional a family as any family could be. I'm sure of it.
Yes, I've had the suicidal thoughts, considered running away, and etc - but I've never gone through with it. Why? I'm not sure. I think it's because deep, deep down I don't want to do those things because it could harm our family relationship more.
And all I really want at this point is for my family to be the way it used to be.

There are still people asking me about Cameron, and why my Stardoll presentation says I'm single. For those that don't know yet, me and Cam broke up like...almost...like, two weeks ago. Yeah, almost two weeks ago.
So you can just stop asking now, please and thank you.

Now...Josh...he's another story all together....

Ari + Cam = The newest couple at Bayside High

A few of you may have heard about Cameron recently. Well, guess what bitches? Cam is my boyfriend of two weeks now! So, yeah, I finally have found myself a boyfriend after all these months of being single, and recently starting to hate being single.

I'll have pictures to post of me and Cam together once my laptop gets back from being sent in to get fixed. BTW, as you can guess from that last sentence I am not on my own laptop right now - I'm using my mom's old one. The disk tray of my laptop broke so now I have to wait a few weeks for it to be fixed. We sent it in to be fixed a few days ago so it should be back by the end of this month. Hopefully.

"Him" and my friend: My current heartbreak

The "Him" I was talking about the other day is now dating the friend I told you about.
I wonder if it's actually possible for your heart to seriously break. Because right now it feels like mine is splintering into a million tiny pieces.

I guess I just need time to collect myself and sulk - because, despite my pain, I won't do anything to make my friend unhappy. If she likes "Him", and he likes her, I'll just let them be together in peace if that's what makes them happy.

Me and Ben and Jerry's ice cream: My favorite relationship