"Him" and my friend: My current heartbreak

The "Him" I was talking about the other day is now dating the friend I told you about.
I wonder if it's actually possible for your heart to seriously break. Because right now it feels like mine is splintering into a million tiny pieces.

I guess I just need time to collect myself and sulk - because, despite my pain, I won't do anything to make my friend unhappy. If she likes "Him", and he likes her, I'll just let them be together in peace if that's what makes them happy.

Me and Ben and Jerry's ice cream: My favorite relationship

That is a picture of "Him". The guy I've been obsessing over for weeks. And no, it's not Ethan, by the way. I'm over Ethan now - despite how much I oddly miss that asshole, I'm over him.

I'm now obsessing over someone new. Just one problem, he's obsessing over one of my best friends - not me.

Why can't I ever just fall for someone who is available for me to crush on? Or why can't I at least tell him how I feel about him?

Now he's asked me to find out if my friend likes him. Why doesn't he just tear my heart in two...?