It's me! When I was little. Even back then I was into fashion and dressing up and all that. It's obvious I'm destined to become a fashion designer, if you think about it. Off to go watch some random Youtube videos for fun - even though I should be sleeping since there's school tomorrow.

What I am drinking as I currently type this. I'm in heaven.
PS: It's a vanilla bean frapp. No caffiene tonight - I want to be able to get to sleep before the wee hours of the morning for once. Lol. But definitely getting my caffiene fix when I wake up tomorrow.

I keep ending up crying for no reason tonight.
I'm shaking - from lack of sleep or something else, I'm not sure.
I feel like throwing everything out my window.
It's too hot in this house - but that's nothing new.
I can't focus my thoughts or attention on any one thing.
I'm confused.
Maybe I just need some sleep.
I hope that's the solution to my problem tonight.
I've never felt so out of control and lost before.
It's the most confusing thing ever.
And a bit scary, I'll admit....

I'm going to go try the one thing that's always helped before.
Music turned up so loud I can't hear a thing.
Notebook and pencil in front of me.
Sketchpad right there beside me. Letting my emotions out.
Into a productive, safe form.

I feel like death re-incarnated. I'm sick. Have been since last night. Been sleeping all day, although waking up every two hours or so. Have only gotten out of bed to help my mom sort some of our VHS tapes, and just an hour ago to get a little something to eat since I hadn't eaten anything in about 24 hours.
My throat hurts like hell; I keep coughing almost every time I move; every bone, muscle, or otherwise is majorly beyond sore; I have a really bad headache, too.
Worst part is that I still have to go to school tomorrow no matter how I'm feeling - I've already missed too many days this semester.
I'm going back to bed now. Beyond tired still, despite how I've been sleeping almost constantly the past 24 hours or so.
I definitely hope I'm feeling a bit better tomorrow. I hate being sick.

I haven't posted since Halloween...dang...I usually post a lot more than that.
I haven't really had anything to post about though. Unless you want to hear about how boring school is, how I keep having boys hit on me during school, how I've been fighting with my mom (but we always make-up the same day), and just stupid things like that. Which, by the way, would probably bore 99% of you to sleep.
So yeah, I'll spare you :)

It is currently almost 7:30am, and although this is a lot later than I normally wake-up on a school day, I wish to death I was still sleeping. I'm not really all that tired, I'm just in one of those moods, you know? Well, maybe you don't know. Oh well.
Everyone in my family is getting ready for that reinlistment ceramony I told you about in my post yesterday. In my opinion, this ceramony sounds super boring. In fact, I bet you anything it will be boring. Guess it's a good thing I have friends brave enough to text during class - so I'll have some people to text.
Homecoming tonight, as I'm sure anyone who has been reading my posts knows already. I think my mom is thinking about taking me out to get my hair professionally done. I want it curled, just because it would be something different from my normal look - as if dying my hair wasn't different enough. Lol.
PS: I just took that picture. Sorry it's so dark, I have my lamp set to the lowest setting and my curtains are closed - plus I didn't want the flash on because it's too bright and I was still adjusting to being awake. You might be able to kinda tell that I've dyed my hair - but I'll have better pictures later so you can see the color better. I promise :)

So, I finally found the cord I needed to plug my Blackberry into my laptop. Logan accidentialy brought it downstairs with my laptop and laptop cord when I let him borrow my laptop yesterday.

Anywho, Its currently 3:50am my time. And I'm finally going to try to get some sleep since my mom might be going to the emergency room in a few hours, when my dad gets home from work - he work's nights - because she hasn't been feeling well for the past few weeks.

Once I get up in a few hours, if I even go to sleep, I'll post the pictures I wanted to post. For now you'll have to settle for the picture in this post. I just took that picture all of like 10 minutes ago. Haha! And be warned, I don't have any make-up on in that picture, because as I said I'm planning on going to sleep now so putting on make-up would have been a waste.

Yeah, I guess that's it really. Good morning to everyone who is in a place where it is morning, and good night to everyone who is in a place where it is night. And good night to moi, of course too. Lol.